Teaser Part 12 Sabar Itu Indah

Assalamualaikum and Hi!

Tangannya terhenti saat melihat gambar suaminya sendiri. dia tersenyum melihat si suami, pandai-pandai hacked akaun instagram dia dengan memuatnaik gambar sendiri. Namun senyumnya mati, apabila membaca caption tentang gambar suaminya. Dibacanya dua kali dan saat melihat gambar tersebut dimuatnaik oleh akaun lain, dia terdiam.

“He sent me this photo just now with my pillow. Gonna miss my pillow. #night” matanya melihat muka suaminya yang nampak kepenatan di hadapannya.

“What is this, Em?” kata Ann separuh berbisik. Walaupun Em nyenyak tidur namun dia berharap Em menjawab. Air matanya sudah mula jatuh. Matanya dipejam dan dibuka semula. Apa yang dilihatnya di dalam telefonnya itu masih ada. Bukan mimpi, Ann. Ann melihat akaun pemilik instagram itu. Dia kenal pemilik itu dan dia masih ingat pesan Em dengannya suatu ketika dulu.

“Sayang, she is my cousin. Tapi jangan rapat sangat dengan sesiapa okay. Make it simple make it normal. Jangan terlalu clingy dengan dia.”

“Why?” 

“Just ikut apa saya cakap. Saya tak berkenan dengan perangai dia.”

“Seperti?”

“Just no. Okay?”

“Okay” Ann pun ikut saja tanpa banyak soal. Adakah ini sebab yang dimaksudkan oleh Em? Ann membangunkan Em. Dia tahu sikapnya seperti pentingkan diri kerana tidak kesiankan suaminya yang kepenatan, tapi dia sendiri mahukan kepastian. Em pula apabila dibangunkan, hanya menggerakkan badan sahaja tapi matanya masih bertutup. Iphone Em diambil oleh Ann. Disebabkan Em menggunakan finger lock, dia terpaksa mengambil tangan Em untuk membuka screen Iphonenya. 

Still working on this part. Sorry for making you wait for so long until I'm able to continue my writing. So many things to do, so many problems coming and people are trying to mess with me. So, guys... tunggu barang sehari dua lagi. In sha Allah siaplah. Dan Part 12 ini adalah klimaks bagi Sabar Itu Indah. Still finding the best ending. Kalau sedih okay tak? Hehehehe. Drop your comment below to know either semua setuju tak saya letak sad ending. HAHAHAHAHA. *kejam*

In sha Allah, happy ending. xx

p/s tolong baca semua, jangan skip

Penat.

Sangat penat.

Orang nak sangat kita jaga hati mereka, tapi mereka tak pulak macam tu.

Orang nak sangat kita pedulikan mereka, tapi mereka tak pulak begitu.

Orang nak sangat kita muncul bila nak sesuatu, tapi mereka tak pulak macam tu.

Orang nak sangat kita tahu apa dan kenapa dengan mereka, tapi mereka tak pulak macam tu.

Orang nak sangat perasaan mereka dijaga, tapi mereka tak pulak macam tu.

Ada jugak sesetengah orang yang beruntung sebab ada orang lain yang peduli dengan mereka jadi orang perantara, tapi tak semua orang macam tu. Bahkan masih jugak nak mengadu cakap hidup mereka sadis. Cubalah beruntung dan bersyukur walau sedikit.


Penat.

Serius penat.

Rasa nak terus berjalan ke depan, taknak toleh ke belakang. Sakit sangat dengan apa yang dah jadi.

Orang suka nak salahkan orang lain kalau tak tahu nak menghargai pengorbanan, tapi orang lain yang berkorban seluruhnya, bukan dengan orang saja, tapi dengan semua orang di sekelilingnya, tak pulak nak menghargai.

Buang bila dah senang, bila tak perlu.

Tapi cari masa susah, masa perlukan, masa nak hancurkan.

Kecewa.

Sangat kecewa.

Rasa taknak lagi dah nak buat macam tu. Lupakan semua tapi payah.


p/s: Kalau awak-awak nakkan orang hargai awak, layan awak, sentiasa bagi perhatian dengan awak, awak kena tanya diri awak, mampukah awak buat macam tu dengan orang. Kalau awak cari masa susah, baik tak payah. Pergi jauh-jauh kalau niat awak sekarang tak sama dengan niat awak akan datang. Awak perlu tahu hargai orang. Perlu tahu. Kisahkan semua itu sebab sebagaimana awak ingin dihargai, awak perlu menghargai.

Malu lah, kalau orang lain tengok awak-awak baik, tapi hakikatnya awak-awak tak macma tu. Awak perasan baik sebab hakikatnya awak hipokrit.

Penat. Kecewa. Sakit.


Mintaklah jauh semua.

Pergilah.

Night. I need my meds.


*Jangan singgah sini lagi, kalau tak ingin. Tak ada paksaan dan justeru jangan memaksa. Sakit. Kecewa. Hargailah walau sikit. Cuba.

The Disappearance

Assalamualaikum and Hi!

Gosh, you have no idea how I miss writing and all. It breaks my heart into million pieces knowing that I have missed a lot of things. *drama*

But hey, I have a lot of reasons for my disappearance guys.

Since I got back from my Raya holidays about a month ago, I'm not feeling well. It started with puking, fever, losing my voice and all. And last night at almost 10pm, I went to the hospital after my nose bleed uncontrollably. You know, it kind of weird when in your entire life you never experience such thing and suddenly, during the cold weather, your nose is bleeding. I was taking a shower and my running nose seems like to annoy me and I have to blow it again and again. And then I saw so many blood on the floor. Seeing my blood, again, made me vomit. I don't know why I feel geli with my own blood. And one more, I can feel the blood is going down my throat too. Panic attacked!

The moment I entered the room, I pulled out the tissues and due to my self-conscious, I wipe my nose and still.. the blood is there. I showed it to my roommates and both of them asked me to go to the hospital. And of course they are willing to accompany me. Despite their roommate is sick, they love the night ride. Uhhhhh, you see.. your friends do that! Hahahaha. But I know, they do worry about me. *wails*

Yesterday, I called my mom and after I called her, I cried. I'm sick and I'm homesick! Plus reason.

But I didn't tell my mom about last night. I will be the last reason for my parents to worry. I just want my parents to know that I'm doing fine. Even though mother's instinct is always right. Mom cried while calling me and knowing I'm still having like an on-off fever for a month plus other things too. She is the reason why I went to the hospital too actually.

In this entire month, I've been in the campsite twice, and loads of assignments as well. Alhamdulillah, I still can manage to do all of that despite the fever etc.

I'm sorry to keep you waiting for next part of Sabar itu Indah. I know you've been asking about the next part. Believe me, as much as I do want to post it here and continue the pending writing, I still can't. Study comes first. In sha Allah, pray for my well being and I'll continue writing. And, if my flu and cough are still sticking on me in a week time, I need to see the doctor again. Duhhhh.

And yes, I have to take the meds now and sleep again after this. YOU TELL ME WHICH MEDS DON'T HAVE THAT EFFECT? and I hate taking meds!!!!!

You know the 20 Facts about me thingy? Yes, you can count on that too. I owe people about that too. lol. I'll make sure I 'll switch it in a fun and weird way.

I think I'm off. MEDICINE is calling me uhhh how annoying that packets on my table buhbyeee.

Salam